Sunday, March 16, 2008

An open letter to M

This was written roughly a year ago, give or take a week.

Hello M,
Of course it upset me to not see you today. I treasure each and every moment I get to spend with you so to have that opportunity taken away makes me sad; you know how I like to keep track of time. I don't want you to feel badly, though. Whatever disappointment I may have contracted from this, I understand that you are not flippant about your relationships and value me as highly as I value you. I want you to know that if you feel you need something, I will not hold you back from it. And if you feel you need me I will not draw away from you. I don't mind that you have set up a dwelling in my mind. Your murmurings weave into my thoughts and in those quiet moments I can hear you. You give me peace in knowing that you are within me. Feel free to stop by any time. I have much to learn from you.

I hope the tumult in your own mind has subsided. I have already told you that I do not wish anything negative even in your general direction. So however necessary your tension may be, I pray that it is short lived and that the lesson you learn from it is learned without too much loss.

-P